- I want to be more independent and get a job, but I'm also scared of all the responsibilities.
- I've been thinking about continuing college and get a master's degree, but I don't know if I can do this because every time I think about it, I get stressed and also I'm tired of learning things and then forgetting them five minutes later because we don't have enough practical tasks at college.
- I wish I could just stop being scared of everything.
- I never appreciate myself. Even when I'm good at something I still doubt myself. I'm the biggest critic of myself and I often think that I could do certain things better. Sometimes it helps because I do everything to be a better person, but sometimes it just sucks and all I want to do is to believe my brain and admit that I'm useless.
- I wish I was more excited for things and I wish I had more desire to try new stuff and go to new places.
- Sometimes I feel like the things that I do make no sense and I don't know what I want to do in life.
- I wish people cared about my life a little bit more.
- I'm so scared of what people are gonna think about me that I just isolate myself from them and I'm slowly getting more and more anti-social and more things make me anxious and uneasy.
- I feel like I can't enjoy my life unless I graduate college and also I feel like it's gonna be so hard and I don't know if I can handle all of this stress.
- I need someone to ensure me that I'm not a complete failure.
- I feel like I do a lot of stuff just to get them done and I don't actually enjoy doing them.
- I don't actually know where I'm going with my life and that really scares me, I mean I know where I want to be and what I want to do, but I don't know how to get there and I'm afraid that I'm never gonna achieve the things that I want to achieve.
- Because I'm quite shy and I don't really like drawing attention to myself, people don't appreciate me and they don't really believe that I'm actually really smart and intelligent and when they find out (usually by accident) they are really impressed. And even though I know that I have to fight for myself and I'm really trying to change my attitude I underrate myself a lot.
I think those are all of the thoughts that I want to share with you. I know That some of them probably don't make any sense to you, but I wanted to share them anyway. As you can imagine, sharing something that is quite personal can be hard, but once you get things off your chest and look at your problems from a different perspective, you can work on the things that are bothering you and also when you write things down, they don't seem as scary anymore.
That's pretty much all I wanted to mention in this post. I really hope you liked it and also let me know if you have any crazy thoughts that are filling up your head, feel free to share them in the comments down below. Also, if you can relate to any of my thoughts, let me know so I don't feel like a complete psycho ;)
Much love
Joanna xo
