Hello 2017! I literally have no idea when 2016 has gone, but I feel like I blinked and it just went. 2016 was quite a good year for me. I graduated university and got accepted to another one. I met some new people, I found some good TV shows, improved in fitness, spent a couple of days with people from Italy and many more. Even though a lot of good things happened I would like to change a couple of things in 2017. Last year I made a few resolutions and I think I did a pretty good job with them (you can check last year's post here). This year I also found a couple of things that I would like to achieve, not only for 2017 but for the rest of my life. I only have 3 major ones, but I don't want to promise myself too much. I prefer to have one or two resolutions and really focus on them rather than a whole list of things that I would just forget about after the first month.
Firstly, I would like to change my diet. Although I've been extremely good with my workouts, my eating habits were not so great. And that makes my workouts less effective. This year I decided to really pay attention to what I eat. I'm going to take small steps in order to find a perfect and balanced meal plan for myself. I'm actually planning on writing a post about it because I think it might be helpful, not only for you, but also for me as it would make a good statement.
The second thing is to study more/ more efficiently in order to get better grades and to at least have a chance to get a scholarship.
My last big resolution is to try new things more often and to stop being afraid of going out and meeting new people. I know that this is probably the hardest resolution, but I'm really determined to be more brave and more confident. I really don't want to spend the rest of my life in my room. I want to meet new people and make new friends and find a good job and I know that if I want to do that I have to go out! I have to stop being afraid of everything! And hopefully at the end of the year I will have at least one great friend and that I will spend New Year's Eve at a crazy party and not at home watching other people having fun.
Let me know in the comments below what are your resolutions for 2017! I hope that this year is going to be a good year for all of you!
Much love
Joanna xo
Saturday, January 7, 2017
Thursday, December 29, 2016
Best friends forever?
Writing this post took me a long time. I didn't know how to start but I also didn't want to seem like a complete asshole by offending my so-called 'friend'. Before I start, I just want to say that she's not a bad person, she just wasn't the right person for me.
When we first met it seemed like a our friendship was a destiny. We kinda found each other on the Internet and back then we thought it was just the best thing that could happen. It wasn't. After a couple of years we changed, or maybe only I changed... Whatever it was, our meetings and our 'friendship' was not the same anymore. There was something missing... There was no comfort in meeting her, I wasn't enjoying it and I was only doing it because she was my one and only friend and I was scared to be alone. But after another year it became even worse. Meeting her was like meeting someone for the first time and not in a good way. Every time I was stressed and worried that our conversation would be awkward and that we would have nothing to talk about. In the end I think our conversations were based on the same things. At the beginning it was fine, especially with the fact that we had the same idol and I think that was the one and only thing that was keeping us together. But you can't just talk about the same things over and over again. We didn't know each others secrets because there was no trust in our friendship, she couldn't make me feel better, all she could do was tell me that everything's gonna be alright and that wasn't enough for me.
As a person who struggles with social interactions so badly I need to someone to push me, to encourage me to try new things and with her it was the opposite, maybe because she was nearly as shy as me and we were just stuck.
I don't know why our friendship has ended. At first I thought it was her fault, but when I think about now I think it was all me. Because I set my expectations so high that she couldn't reach them. I was expecting her to the perfect friend. She wasn't, but that doesn't mean she was bad. She just wasn't enough for me. It might sound terrible but this is how I feel and I think if you don't enjoy being with someone and if they don't bring out what's best in you then you shouldn't waste your time on being with them. Like me and my friend, some people are not meant to be together.
I think that maybe I'm just meant to be alone for the rest of my life... maybe I don't deserve friends if I can't appreciate them... or maybe, there's someone waiting to be my friend? I don't know. All I know is that I just want to live my life and leave all the people who don't make it any better behind.
And to my "friend" if you're reading this, I wish you all the best. I hope that you'll be happy and that you'll find a better friend. And also... I'm sorry.
That it I think... If you have any questions or you've been in a similar situation, feel free to leave a comment below!
Much love
Joanna xo
When we first met it seemed like a our friendship was a destiny. We kinda found each other on the Internet and back then we thought it was just the best thing that could happen. It wasn't. After a couple of years we changed, or maybe only I changed... Whatever it was, our meetings and our 'friendship' was not the same anymore. There was something missing... There was no comfort in meeting her, I wasn't enjoying it and I was only doing it because she was my one and only friend and I was scared to be alone. But after another year it became even worse. Meeting her was like meeting someone for the first time and not in a good way. Every time I was stressed and worried that our conversation would be awkward and that we would have nothing to talk about. In the end I think our conversations were based on the same things. At the beginning it was fine, especially with the fact that we had the same idol and I think that was the one and only thing that was keeping us together. But you can't just talk about the same things over and over again. We didn't know each others secrets because there was no trust in our friendship, she couldn't make me feel better, all she could do was tell me that everything's gonna be alright and that wasn't enough for me.
I don't know why our friendship has ended. At first I thought it was her fault, but when I think about now I think it was all me. Because I set my expectations so high that she couldn't reach them. I was expecting her to the perfect friend. She wasn't, but that doesn't mean she was bad. She just wasn't enough for me. It might sound terrible but this is how I feel and I think if you don't enjoy being with someone and if they don't bring out what's best in you then you shouldn't waste your time on being with them. Like me and my friend, some people are not meant to be together.
I think that maybe I'm just meant to be alone for the rest of my life... maybe I don't deserve friends if I can't appreciate them... or maybe, there's someone waiting to be my friend? I don't know. All I know is that I just want to live my life and leave all the people who don't make it any better behind.
And to my "friend" if you're reading this, I wish you all the best. I hope that you'll be happy and that you'll find a better friend. And also... I'm sorry.
That it I think... If you have any questions or you've been in a similar situation, feel free to leave a comment below!
Much love
Joanna xo
Sunday, October 9, 2016
Relationship goals
If you're here to read a soppy story about how I found a perfect boyfriend, you are in a wrong place. Although it is a love story, just a bit different one. It's a story about loving your body and loving who you are. This a story about how I became (as odd as it may sound) my own best friend.
I think that I should start this story by saying that I've never been really fat/overweight, but for a long time I've had a fake image of my own body.
When I was young I've never really paid attention to the way I looked. It all started in high school. I started seeing all these people, who in my eyes were perfect. They were slim and fit, they had nice clothes and make up and I wished to be more like them. I started looking in the mirror and criticizing every single thing about my body. My legs, my stomach, my face, everything... I was never happy with the way I looked.
After a year of hating on myself, I decided to start doing something to make myself feel better. I started working out and it was a bad idea, now let me tell you why...
I'm a really impatient person and I wanted to see the results there and then. It obviously doesn't work like that. After every workout I was checking myself in the mirror to see if I looked any better. I didn't.
Looking back at it, I know exactly why it didn't work.
First of all, my diet was not the best. I was eating a lot of crap because I thought it would make me feel better. Second of all I was doing exercises that were not enjoyable for me. Quickly my workouts became a punishment for me, for my body. This stage of my life lasted for almost three years.
It all changed two years ago when I was doing a list of New Year's resolutions. I know that a lot of people have this on theirs, but I decided that I'm really gonna stick to it. I decided to work out every day and start eating better (I'm still a chocolate addict tho). I try to pick healthier options and I don't feel guilty anymore when I eat a huge piece of cake or a chocolate bar. I also picked workouts that were extremely enjoyable for me. After 6 months I realized that I am kind of addicted to working out and that was the best feeling in the world. Finally, I wasn't exercising to lose fat and to punish my body, I was exercising because I wanted to and I was enjoying every second of it. As I realized that, I started seeing my body in a different light. I started noticing small changes in the way I looked (or maybe I just stopped looking at myself through my flaws). Now two years after committing to this healthy lifestyle I can proudly say that I am happy about myself. I'm happy about the way I look and the way I feel. Of course I still have those days when I just look in the mirror and think to myself "what the hell is wrong with my face?!" and when the bags under my eyes are as big as my school bag, but whenever this happens I try to point out at least 3 things that I love about myself and usually I find a lot more! I really recommend doing this. Just stand in front of the mirror and start counting the things that you like about yourself. You will feel so much better, even if it's something small like "my freckles are cute" or "I like my hair today". Trust me, it might seem weird talking to your reflection, but it really helps. Once you learn how to make yourself feel better and how to cheer yourself up your life will become so much easier.
I also think that my confidence increased when I stopped comparing myself to other people. I realized that I'm never gonna look like a model (mainly because I'm 5'2") and that's ok. I can still be beautiful and feel great in my own body. I chose to accept my flaws, like the fact that the left corner of my lips lifts up whenever I raise my eyebrows because I had Bell's Palsy or the fact that I don't have a gap between my thighs (which I think is not that big of a deal anyway). What I'm trying to say is that your flaws don't define who you are. It takes a lot of time to realize this, but once you do your life becomes 100x better!
I think I'm gonna stop rambling now because this is probably the longest post that I've ever written. At the end, I just want to tell you that you are beautiful in your own way and don't let anyone tell you that you are not and I really hope that you really liked this post and that it has encouraged you and gave you the motivation to start loving yourself. And remember that looks are not the most important thing in life! There's so much more to you than just a thigh gap and flat stomach!
If you guys have any questions, thoughts, want to tell your story or you want to know more about my story, feel free to leave a comment down below!
You can also find me on Twitter @Just__Joanna if you want to tweet me or DM me go ahead!
Much love
Joanna xo
I think that I should start this story by saying that I've never been really fat/overweight, but for a long time I've had a fake image of my own body.
When I was young I've never really paid attention to the way I looked. It all started in high school. I started seeing all these people, who in my eyes were perfect. They were slim and fit, they had nice clothes and make up and I wished to be more like them. I started looking in the mirror and criticizing every single thing about my body. My legs, my stomach, my face, everything... I was never happy with the way I looked.
After a year of hating on myself, I decided to start doing something to make myself feel better. I started working out and it was a bad idea, now let me tell you why...
I'm a really impatient person and I wanted to see the results there and then. It obviously doesn't work like that. After every workout I was checking myself in the mirror to see if I looked any better. I didn't.
Looking back at it, I know exactly why it didn't work.
First of all, my diet was not the best. I was eating a lot of crap because I thought it would make me feel better. Second of all I was doing exercises that were not enjoyable for me. Quickly my workouts became a punishment for me, for my body. This stage of my life lasted for almost three years.
It all changed two years ago when I was doing a list of New Year's resolutions. I know that a lot of people have this on theirs, but I decided that I'm really gonna stick to it. I decided to work out every day and start eating better (I'm still a chocolate addict tho). I try to pick healthier options and I don't feel guilty anymore when I eat a huge piece of cake or a chocolate bar. I also picked workouts that were extremely enjoyable for me. After 6 months I realized that I am kind of addicted to working out and that was the best feeling in the world. Finally, I wasn't exercising to lose fat and to punish my body, I was exercising because I wanted to and I was enjoying every second of it. As I realized that, I started seeing my body in a different light. I started noticing small changes in the way I looked (or maybe I just stopped looking at myself through my flaws). Now two years after committing to this healthy lifestyle I can proudly say that I am happy about myself. I'm happy about the way I look and the way I feel. Of course I still have those days when I just look in the mirror and think to myself "what the hell is wrong with my face?!" and when the bags under my eyes are as big as my school bag, but whenever this happens I try to point out at least 3 things that I love about myself and usually I find a lot more! I really recommend doing this. Just stand in front of the mirror and start counting the things that you like about yourself. You will feel so much better, even if it's something small like "my freckles are cute" or "I like my hair today". Trust me, it might seem weird talking to your reflection, but it really helps. Once you learn how to make yourself feel better and how to cheer yourself up your life will become so much easier.
I also think that my confidence increased when I stopped comparing myself to other people. I realized that I'm never gonna look like a model (mainly because I'm 5'2") and that's ok. I can still be beautiful and feel great in my own body. I chose to accept my flaws, like the fact that the left corner of my lips lifts up whenever I raise my eyebrows because I had Bell's Palsy or the fact that I don't have a gap between my thighs (which I think is not that big of a deal anyway). What I'm trying to say is that your flaws don't define who you are. It takes a lot of time to realize this, but once you do your life becomes 100x better!
I think I'm gonna stop rambling now because this is probably the longest post that I've ever written. At the end, I just want to tell you that you are beautiful in your own way and don't let anyone tell you that you are not and I really hope that you really liked this post and that it has encouraged you and gave you the motivation to start loving yourself. And remember that looks are not the most important thing in life! There's so much more to you than just a thigh gap and flat stomach!
If you guys have any questions, thoughts, want to tell your story or you want to know more about my story, feel free to leave a comment down below!
You can also find me on Twitter @Just__Joanna if you want to tweet me or DM me go ahead!
Much love
Joanna xo
Sunday, September 18, 2016
More memories...
Sunday, August 21, 2016
22 thinngs I've learned in 22 years
So the time has come... I'm officially 22 even though it doesn't really feel like it.
In this post I've decided to share 22 things that I've learned in those 22 years of my life. Some of them are quite obvious and some of them are more deep, but either way I hope you'll enjoy them!
1. God is good.
2. Your health is the most important thing. Both, physical and mental. Always put your health first before doing anything else.
3. Take care of yourself as you would take care of someone you really love.
4. Learn how to be your own best friend. Love yourself. It's not easy, but it'll make you so much more happy.
5. It's ok to have bad days. Everyone has them. Just remember that a bad day doesn't mean a bad life.
6. Other people are not your opponents. You don't have to compete with them.
7. Enjoy your life. Try to find something positive in every little thing.
8. Success tastes better if you work hard for it.
9. Saying 'yes' to more things can be scary, but that's how most of your best memories are made.
10. Don't take anything for granted.
11. Don't judge other people unless you REALLY know their story.
12. Don't focus on what other people think about you, focus on yourself and your happiness.
13. Exercising is not a punishment, make it fun, enjoy what you do. Your body will appreciate it.
14. Don't criticize yourself. You don't need that in your life.
15. Start every day of your life by saying something nice to yourself. Or at least smile to yourself in the mirror.
16. Cherish the moments spent with your family while you can. The older you get, the less time you will have to hang out with them.
17. You don't need a boyfriend to fit in and prove to others that you can get one. Find someone who will make you a better version of yourself.
18. Social anxiety is not the part of you. Don't let it take over your life. Don't learn how to live with it, learn how to conquer it and live without it.
19. Life is full of tough choices. Choose wisely
20. Learn from your mistakes, that's what they are for.
21. People come and go, don't get too attached.
22. Don't let other people tell you how to live your life. Listen to their advice, but don't let them decide.
I've obviously learned a lot more, but those are the main things that I think everyone should know. I hope you liked this post and found some advice/inspiration. As always, feel free to leave a comment down below if you want to share something with me and others!
Much Love
Joanna xo
In this post I've decided to share 22 things that I've learned in those 22 years of my life. Some of them are quite obvious and some of them are more deep, but either way I hope you'll enjoy them!
1. God is good.
2. Your health is the most important thing. Both, physical and mental. Always put your health first before doing anything else.
3. Take care of yourself as you would take care of someone you really love.
4. Learn how to be your own best friend. Love yourself. It's not easy, but it'll make you so much more happy.
5. It's ok to have bad days. Everyone has them. Just remember that a bad day doesn't mean a bad life.
6. Other people are not your opponents. You don't have to compete with them.
7. Enjoy your life. Try to find something positive in every little thing.
8. Success tastes better if you work hard for it.
9. Saying 'yes' to more things can be scary, but that's how most of your best memories are made.
10. Don't take anything for granted.
11. Don't judge other people unless you REALLY know their story.
12. Don't focus on what other people think about you, focus on yourself and your happiness.
13. Exercising is not a punishment, make it fun, enjoy what you do. Your body will appreciate it.
14. Don't criticize yourself. You don't need that in your life.
15. Start every day of your life by saying something nice to yourself. Or at least smile to yourself in the mirror.
16. Cherish the moments spent with your family while you can. The older you get, the less time you will have to hang out with them.
17. You don't need a boyfriend to fit in and prove to others that you can get one. Find someone who will make you a better version of yourself.
18. Social anxiety is not the part of you. Don't let it take over your life. Don't learn how to live with it, learn how to conquer it and live without it.
19. Life is full of tough choices. Choose wisely
20. Learn from your mistakes, that's what they are for.
21. People come and go, don't get too attached.
22. Don't let other people tell you how to live your life. Listen to their advice, but don't let them decide.
I've obviously learned a lot more, but those are the main things that I think everyone should know. I hope you liked this post and found some advice/inspiration. As always, feel free to leave a comment down below if you want to share something with me and others!
Much Love
Joanna xo
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